Music, Fellowship, Peace (Day 101/102/103)

Wednesday: There is one thing in Tulsa that I've missed more than anything. It happens every Wednesday night at the coffee shop. We come and praise God. We don't only sing, we belt out. We come to give everything we have to Him but without trying get so much out of it for ourselves as well. The Well, as it's called it, is one of the most spiritual hours I've ever experienced. It's a feeling like no other. I believe it's what David experienced when he sang his psalms. When the music starts the atmosphere of the room changes. You can feel the air moving around you, you can sense the people clinging to the words. Sometimes I seem to create music I didn't know was possible. I seem to sing from a part that is deep inside me. I let go of the fear of what I sound like. I stop using my brain to sing and only rely on my heart. That is what I missed about Tulsa because that is the best way I know how to thank my Father. I give Him my music. My music can come from no one else because it is my voice. It is something solely mine therefore that gift can be given by only me.

Thursday: Another productive day at work. I was able to eat lunch with a dear friend. Just talking with her reassured me that Tulsa is the right place for me. It seems like God's been trying to show me that. He did it again later that day when I went to meet a few friends at my favorite park. I hope one day I can have as deep of a relationship with my Father as these five people do. We laid out in the field and marveled at God's art. Then we walked through the rose gardens at the park and took in the sweet smells and the bold colors. After watching the sun set we headed to a restaurant to talk. The whole time I felt God was easing me into a deeper peace with this decision of moving to Tulsa. With every word these people spoke and with every minute I spent sitting on the porch of the restaurant I remembered why I loved this city. I wasn't worried for once. And this one ties into Friday.

Friday: When I woke up this morning I had the most amazing peace. I even tried to worry and I couldn't make it happen. It still hasn't really worn off. I actually started to worry that something was wrong with me because I haven't felt this way in such a long time. Haha. See, I can worry about anything! But really, I feel peace and that is the greatest blessing.. and a quickly answered prayer. Thank you all who were praying for me.

Oh, this is something I forgot to proclaim on my last post.

100 DAYS ARE DONE!!!!

I can't believe I've come this far!