I wish I could say something spectacular happened on day 365, but sadly not much happened at all. It was a dreary day outside with an overcast sky and rain. The restaurant was warm and dark so I became tired quickly. You could tell the weather was affecting the kids at practice as well. They didn't seem alert and focused as noted by the way they clumsily traveled from one end of the pool to the other.
I really didn't know what I would write about until I wrote down the first paragraph. "I would never have thought this would be my life in a year." And lets take it even farther, lets say my freshman year. An older couple came into the restaurant. Since they were my only table at the time I was able to talk to them. Somehow after many questions were exchanged we got on the subject of how I went from graphic design to coaching. And that's how I started my story. Freshman year I walked onto Harding soil in complete rebellion against the Harding, we'll call it "way." You wouldn't have caught me dead talking about marriage or babies or any of that junk. I was going to be a working woman. I was going to climb the ladder and make a name for myself. I'd be in the corner office on the top floor of the skyscraper. I knew about God, I had grown up going to church, I was baptized, but I was in this life for me. I didn't know there was any other way.
Thankfully, He got a hold of my heart and slowly started breaking it. He broke it so He could fix it the way He wanted it to look. My spiritual tears are coming back as I write this. I don't even want to imagine what my life would be if I hadn't met Him, and I mean really MET Him. I don't know of God, I know Him! Just thinking about how far away from Him I was terrifies me. I now have only one goal in this life and that is never leave His side. Tears are literally streaming down my face as I think of not being able to be close to Him. This is the God who has saved me from some of the stupidest mistakes of my life, a God who has literally carried me when I was too weak to continue, a God who has changed me from a woman who never wanted anyone too get to close to a woman who loves friendships and relationships with people. This is a God who has softened my heart towards kids; whether they be my swimmers or my own little ones I hope to have some day! This is a God who took my cold life and made it warm and meaningful. And honestly, I say this has been happening since freshman year (and most of it has), but quite a bit has happened just in this past year. Really, my biggest blessing was writing this blog of blessings because it has changed me. Who would have thought writing a blog would do that. Don't they normally change the people reading them? I know that's what's happened to me in the past. I didn't know they could change the life of the writer, but thank our heavenly Father it did! Just looking back at this paragraph is making me laugh. I started writing today not know what I would say, and now I'm in awe of this blessing. Praise be to the God who can make all things good!
I also wanted to add a huge thank you to the people who continually read. You don't know how much it means to me when I hear things like, "oh yeah, I saw that on your blog" or, "so and so was wondering when you were going to write another post." I know the meaning of this wasn't so I would be glorified, but I can't help enjoying the fact that people are listening. This blog is one of the most special pieces of my life and to know people find joy in reading it makes it that much more of a treasure.
I would like to add that these quotes are actually found on one of my Pinterest boards. I just pin them as I find them. I've also posted them on here in the order I've found them from oldest to newest. I always have to giggle when they seem to match my post. I believe that's God saying, told you so.
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