Monday was an off day. Any day that doesn't have a set routine is considered a weird day to me. Bible study was once again good. I love how I've become close to those girls and after the study we went and got frozen yogurt. I really enjoy having friends older than me and these girls fit that mold perfectly. I even ended up talking to one of them until 3:30 in the morning.. without knowing of course. When we finally looked at the time we were shocked and then realized why we were so tired. I thank God for that Bible study and the way I've grown close to those wonderful women.
Today ended up being another job freak out day. Here are my fears:
- I don't believe I can help people with design so I wish I had majored in more of a service job.
- I'm afraid of becoming a workaholic since I know I've fallen into that trap before.
- I'm worried I'll look back on my life when I'm forty and feel like I wasted it.
- I'm just flat out scared I'll hate my job.
So I talked to a friend about it. I'm more writing all of this down for me so I can look back at it when I start freaking out again. These are the things she told me. I can make good money with design. With that money I can help people. I didn't go into this job thinking I could make a lot of money and use it for myself. I was never selfish in my intentions. I'm aware of the fact that I can overwork myself and since I have that awareness it won't be as easy to fall into that trap. I don't have to stick with this career if I decide I don't like it and I definitely don't have to stick with a job I don't like. She then looked at me and said, "you're talented and you're heart's in the right place. You'll be fine." So there you go. I'll be fine. Now I just actually have to get out there and find that job. I can do this.
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