Trust That He Will Protect(138/139/140)

Well, Friday was a dear friend's birthday. She turned 22 and thankfully her family lives in Tulsa so I got to meet four adorable children! I've been missing kids in my life so for them to open up to me and want to play with me was just what the doctor ordered. I've been a coach since I was thirteen and since that time I haven't gone many days without being around kids. I always knew I loved them but I didn't realize how much until the realization hit me that I won't be coaching again anytime soon. That was a huge shock and disappointment. I've found myself acting like I'm still a coach or a Sunday school teacher. When I was in those positions it didn't matter if I knew the kids. I could just pick them up and move them, talk to them, help them, etc. At swim meets I would always be down with the four through eight year olds and if one wasn't in the right spot I would literally just pick them up and move them. I would also squat down and talk to them making sure they knew what they were swimming. I'd check to see if their suits were secure so we wouldn't find them floating in the pool after they dove in, and I would get them excited by jumping around with them. Well now that's just creepy. I can't go and pick up a random child I don't know. Their parents might think I'm kidnapping. And not many kids think it's normal for some random adult to start talking to them. So you see, being with four kids who trusted me was over joyful. I got to be more of who I really am.

Saturday really helped me rely on God for my security. I was nervous about upcoming events and I knew that a friend had some encouraging words he wanted to tell me so I asked if we could get lunch. I thought those words would help lift me up and feel better about myself. I'm sorry if you're reading this. I really did want to get lunch with you. But he text me the next day saying he was helping a friend move at the last minute. I was disappointed at first but then I realized why it had happened. God really wanted me to get my security from Him that day. And that's just what I did. I haven't been in that much prayer in a long time. And it was so joyful. It was more prayers of thanksgiving and adoration than prayers of worry and wanting. I felt like I could really trust what He had coming up for me in the next few weeks. The prayer lasted pretty much all day, mixed with study of His word, until I went to a friend's house to watch a movie. The thing is, I never really heard any physical encouraging words from God, but I felt so much more encouraged than I could of even been with my friend's words.

Can I just call God a blessing? Can He be my blessing for the day? He protected me from so much today. He carried me through today. I can't thank Him enough. So for being vague. I don't feel comfortable sharing the details but just know I couldn't of planned the day better. So many fears of what today would bring were quenched. I took a walk around my pond so I could pray and all I could muster was, "I trust You, I trust You." That is a really scary thing to say. I'm putting so much in His hands. But who's hands are bigger, stronger, more secure than His? And after today, why should I not trust Him. As long as I'm a woman after His own heart I will be blessed with more than I can imagine!