Nothing But Shocking (Day 141)

I promised I would let you in on my internship and since today was one of the loneliest days this summer there isn't any huge blessing I wouldn't be sharing with you.

Last Tuesday, my boss called me into his office and pretty much told me he was unimpressed with me and that I had no passion. He then proceeded to tell me that I should of been competing with a freelance designer he hired to work for him for a few months the entire time I was here. He told me I was more talented but she was still designing circles around me. He said I should of been doing anything possible to get hired. His examples were how she stays overnight to get things done, does things she's not getting paid to do, and jokes with him. I was in complete shock. I thought that coming in on time everyday, getting everything done that was given to me, and staying past three (which is when I'm scheduled to get off) almost everyday was good. It also really upset me that he was comparing me to a paid employee. I just wish he would of said something earlier because I wasn't trying to come across as apathetic. My last day was supposed to the third but after he told me that I reluctantly decided to stay until the tenth.

After telling me that last Tuesday, I (reluctantly) stayed late everyday. I stayed so late that I was late to all the plans I had after work. My normal work week consisted of around 33 hours a week but by the end of last week I ended up with 46; which means last Friday could of been my last day entirely. It took all my strength to walk back into that office this morning, but I knew it was unprofessional to not go back, and giving up is not something I can handle doing. Before he ever told me any of this I loved going to work. There wasn't a day I woke up, no matter how tired I was, and didn't want to get to the office. Well, that all change after our little chat that left me with tears in my eyes. I had never been called unimpressive or lacking passion in my life.

Well today, I decided to not let him get to me and ruin design for me. I got the courage to tell them my last day would be this Friday instead of the tenth. I also finished a project he had given me and he actually told me it looked really nice. I'm proud of myself for not letting him get the best of me and in the end proving him wrong. Now I only have one more logo design to complete and hopefully I can blow him away with that one. Prayers would be greatly appreciated over the next four days since logo design is what I struggle with the most.