Tune Out, Shut Off (Day 211)

My blessing today.. I guess it's just the weather being cool enough that I survived a bike ride at 1:00 in the afternoon. There aren't many days in Texas where that is possible.

I went on said bike ride to help clear my head from all the confusion on where I should let my life take me. I have two very different roads to choose from, both having clear positives and negatives, and the anxiety was getting to me so much I had to do the only thing I knew to get my mind off of it.

I don't know why bike rides allow me to tune out the world. You'd think I'd have more time to think since the motion of peddling is a pretty mindless activity. But for some reason my mind shuts off the world. I've found myself in the past get back from an hour bike ride and think to myself, "What in the world was I thinking about?" I know I think, I just don't know what about. I've even tried to focus on thinking about something, but then the thoughts fade and once I remember to think it's been who knows how long. Too bad I can't just sit on a bike through my entire day because the minute I got back in the car to drive home I started thinking again, mulling over my options, trying to come up with some answer.

The racing thoughts might not of ceased forever, but I was given an hour of peace and I'm thankful for that.