Eat Your Heart Out (Day 108)

Ok here's the deal. I want to preface this before I say what it is. I used to be a swimmer. And when you're a swimmer you learn to eat abnormally large amounts of food. I also have a fast metabolism which means my body is capable to getting things out of my stomach quickly. I also want to state that even though I can still eat like a swimmer doesn't mean I do. I don't particularly like eating large amounts of food.

(Day 104/105/106/107)

Sorry long weekend. I've got to start writing these earlier in the day. I've been out late every night because my friends are too awesome to leave!

So Saturday we headed out to the lake. It was wonderful being with so many close friends. We enjoyed tubing together, laying out on a floating island, taking so many pictures, riding on sea-doos, and getting some color.. if I can even do that. Another thing that I got to try was wake boarding! It was once of the best experiences I've ever had. I got the hang of it pretty quickly. I just love the lake. I love water and sun and fun. If I could choose, I would be on the lake every day.

Music, Fellowship, Peace (Day 101/102/103)

Wednesday: There is one thing in Tulsa that I've missed more than anything. It happens every Wednesday night at the coffee shop. We come and praise God. We don't only sing, we belt out. We come to give everything we have to Him but without trying get so much out of it for ourselves as well. The Well, as it's called it, is one of the most spiritual hours I've ever experienced. It's a feeling like no other. I believe it's what David experienced when he sang his psalms. When the music starts the atmosphere of the room changes. You can feel the air moving around you, you can sense the people clinging to the words. Sometimes I seem to create music I didn't know was possible. I seem to sing from a part that is deep inside me. I let go of the fear of what I sound like. I stop using my brain to sing and only rely on my heart. That is what I missed about Tulsa because that is the best way I know how to thank my Father. I give Him my music. My music can come from no one else because it is my voice. It is something solely mine therefore that gift can be given by only me.

Three Hours Away (Day 99/100)

Three hours away from graduating that is.. and those three hours started yesterday! Well really I'm 195 hours away which equals three hours of credit. And really if you count the last two days it's only 182 hours and 15 minutes. I'm a bit excited to get that diploma.

My Rock (Day 97/98)

I don't know where to start. I'm combining these two blessings over the past two days because they all tie together. As I was driving up to Tulsa my mind was racing. So many things are unknown to me right now. It's been enough to bring me to tears multiple times. I feel like everything around me is unstable. There's nothing to hold on to. I thought coming to Tulsa would fix all of that. It's a place I feel so comfortable in. It's my home. But even it has been so different it's almost unrecognizable. I wanted to get to a place where I could grab on to some certainty but even after arriving I'm still juggling these emotions.

His Perspective (Day 96)

My blessing today is I'm glad I'm not stupid enough to wrestle an alligator.. Ok, not really. But I'm watching a guy wrestle an alligator on the news and I think he's a bit crazy. Really my blessing is just being able to get out. I wasn't in my house really at all. Except when I was packing I was out with my aunt eating lunch and spending the afternoon catching up and then out with my family for dinner.

I'm A Potato, Couch Potato That Is (Day 95)

Well, my bike is now in my hands. I haven't been able to ride it yet because of when I got to go pick it up but I still have it. It's been a pretty lazy day here. I should of been packing but of course I've decided to leave it to the last possible moment. Oh well, won't get many more lazy days. It's still hard for me to consider them blessings since I don't like to sit still for very long, but what the heck, they're blessings.

New Wheels (Day 94)

Today I received my first custom set of wheels. They're putting it together at the shop as I type and you read. I get to go pick it up tomorrow. It's shiny and red with tiny white stripes down the side. Leather seating, thin black wheels with black rims. Front and rear brakes. Oh, and a chain, handle bars, and pedals. That's because I got a bike!

Relish (Day 92/93)

Yesterday was the first day I didn't want to write. The reason being I don't have much to say. I'm on the cusp of graduation which means my group of friends is not here and being a social person I'm hitting my wall. I can only sit around for so long. Thank goodness Tulsa is only 3 days away.

Family Weekend (Day 90/91)

Saturday: My bother and I headed up to Durant, Ok to help clean out my grandparent's old house. Cleaning was tiring and even though driving back was tiring as well I really enjoyed being with my brother and talking about life. It's been a long time since I've been able to just sit back and talk with him. We've been on such different schedules and so far apart it hasn't happened. And for two weeks we're in the same place so I'm going to spend this time with him as much as I can.

All About Sweat (Day 87/88/89)

Wednesday: 4:30AM. Alarm goes off. I'm dreading it but I know once I'm up and in the crisp water it will be better. I'll be wide awake and feel refreshed as my body slips through the water like a knife.

Reminders (Day 86)

I don't have anything big today. It's my fault. I didn't make God a priority in my life today. I wasted most of it on catching up on old Big Bang Theory episodes my parents recorded for me, reading the Hunger Games, and doing a some odd jobs around the house. It's because I didn't start the morning off with Jesus Calling. I completely forgot. This trying to get into a routine is difficult when there's nothing to schedule around. Only once did I pray today. It feels weird, being this distant from Him. It's like when I don't get to talk to Liz for a few days. I feel something's missing. I hope this can be a reminder to make sure I always start off with my 30-45 minute mornings or reading, reflecting, and communing with my Father.

Locked Up (Day 82/83/84/85)

The reason I didn't write is because my computer was locked up in my car under the weight of all my belongings this past weekend. I left my dorm Friday afternoon and wasn't able to unpack until later last night. Here's the weekend wrap-up, blessing style :)

Friday: After checking out and leaving my dorm forever(!!), I drove up to Heber to spend the day at the lake with Chloe. It was a wonderful, relaxing day, full of sun, swimming, music, and reading. We found a remote location away from the creepy boys that can get a little too close sometimes and laid our towels out. From 1:30 to 6:30 we laid around and whenever we got hot or bored we headed out to the buoys at the edge of the swimming area.

Blinking Butt Bugs (Day 81)

Everyone who reads this knows I love stars. They mesmerize me, they capture my attention, they make me ponder about the extent of God. The next best thing to stars is fireflies. Maybe it's because we don't have them in Dallas, maybe it's because their butts glow, but maybe it's because they are dancing stars. These faint yellow/green lights blink as they travel through space, able to travel in all directions.

My Angel In Disguise (Day 80)

My blessing started out early this morning. Right as I woke up I text a friend with "soooo..." There was something big that happened to her earlier this week and she was filled with worry. All the worry was in her head but you know what happens to us women when we put our hearts on the line. There is no calming us down until the issue has been resolved. Our minds just take charge and it never seems to be positive thoughts.