Thank You For Making Me Scared (Day 549)

Passion. Passion is what I've been searching for, longing for. Passionate people are the people who actually do something in this world. Being the "Good Christian Girl" isn't enough for me anymore. I want more and believe God does as well. Jesus' disciples weren't just good Christian men, they were crazy (at least in the world's eyes) and I want that because they knew the Truth and they knew His love. The thing about searching for this passion and calling out to Jesus for it has brought upon some of the scariest days of my life.

Through Faith (Day 547)

So I wish today I could say I drove to my first official day of work excited and ready to conqueror.. but sadly I was so nervous I almost threw up my egg omelet I forced myself to eat even though I didn't have an appetite (also from being nervous). I wish I could say that by halfway through the day I was calm again but that would be a lie. I wish I could say that when I got home and literally fell down on my couch and immediately fell asleep (probably because my body was so tired from all of the anxiety) and then woke up two hours later that I was good to go, but sadly I was not. What finally calmed me down was getting down on my knees and praying.

Call Me Out, Coach. (Day 537)

Taking a break from the world can be a good thing. I decided to take some time for myself every morning this week since I worked so many hours this weekend. The problem was as the days went on my morning time to myself rolled into my afternoons and then I became even worse and let it roll into time after practice in my evenings until bedtime. Well that was until today when I was called out for it.