Loss (Day 230)

I've needed time to myself. I needed time to think and not have my thoughts public. Life is hitting me hard and I have major decisions to make. But today I was hit with the reality that what I'm going through is nothing compared to what a dear friend is. I'm not ready to disclose everything traveling around in my head over the past days but I needed to dedicate this post to her.

Orphan (Day 219)

I found a cat tonight. She was crying and I felt sorry for her so I took her home. In my defense I'm going to take her to the animal shelter tomorrow. I just want to protect her. I didn't want her to be alone. It pains me to see living things without loving families. I know I'm getting judgy eyes right now. Don't judge, just appreciate that I love.

5 Months Later (214/215/216/217/218)

After my four hour drive turned into a five and a half one I finally arrived in Houston to see my best friend of all time after being apart for five months.. and her new addition to her finger. Yes, my best friend is now engaged and I spent the weekend getting to help plan her wedding because I'm now a bridesmaid! It's my first wedding so it's sort of a big deal to me.

It Hit Me (Day 213)

Have you ever started something and before you finished you forgot the main reason you started? I have. I did, with this blog. I didn't write about this yesterday, even though that's when it happened, because it was a bit off topic and last night's post was a chapter long. But yesterday, while talking to Becca about her travels, I was reminded.

Support Systems (Day 212)

What would I be without the ones closest to me. I could be broke, homeless, and hungry, but if I have people who genuinely love me I know I'll be ok. After three days of praying I feel like I'm a bit, no a lot, closer to making my decision. I still have time to ponder on what to do, but they definitely helped make me see the positives of this change.

Tune Out, Shut Off (Day 211)

My blessing today.. I guess it's just the weather being cool enough that I survived a bike ride at 1:00 in the afternoon. There aren't many days in Texas where that is possible.

I went on said bike ride to help clear my head from all the confusion on where I should let my life take me. I have two very different roads to choose from, both having clear positives and negatives, and the anxiety was getting to me so much I had to do the only thing I knew to get my mind off of it.

Breaking the Trend (Day 207/208/209/210)

I've been under the weather for a few days so that's why there have been no posts. Before I started feeling bad I did get to spend a fun evening with a friend from high school.

So you want to know what happened the day I got better (aka today)? Ya, I thought so. Well, I'm not ok with giving all the information away because I want to make a decision before telling the world. I was offered a job. Exciting right? Ya, sort of. I'm just very confused with all of it.

It All Just Happened (Day 206)

What a day. It all just happened. Everything came together. Now, I'm not saying God gave me the meaning of life or anything. Heck, He still has me wondering about tomorrow, but a lot of things were completed today. One being my packets. Ok, so they still aren't mailed because I didn't have a way to leave the house today since all the cars seemed to be missing, but all that has to be done is to drop them in a mail box and kiss them goodbye forever.

Printing (Day 205)

Wonderfully busy day. So busy that this post may seem lacking of detail. The reason being it's not over yet and I'm dead tired. My paper came in so I was able to go to Kinko's and reprint my cover letters. This time there is no turning back because I sealed those babies today! Tomorrow they will be mailed and I'll start praying for responses. I also started on Becca's t-shirts! I'm screen printing shirts to help raise money for a friend who's going to 12 countries in 11 months. It's through a organization called World Race. If you've read my "More About Me" section you've seen her, she's my other half in Tulsa. This isn't a chore to me. It's something I want to do because I love her. It's a way of using my talents for the greater good. If you want to know more about her trip here's her blog as well.

For the Cause (Day 203/204)

Since I've been really lazy for the past two days and haven't given myself any chances to receive blessings except for the ones we take for granted on a daily basis (running water, hot showers, hygiene in general, plenty of food, health, etc.), I want to dedicate this post to something that tears at my heart.

Relieve Hunger (Day 202)

I found myself southwest of downtown Dallas today. It's not really the place where you would find me. Bars on windows, cars locked behind iron fences, even barbed wire in some places, but it's also a place where the nonprofit organization Hunger Busters is located. It's a place my mom has been volunteering for a year now and today I got to go with her.

My Pride (Day 200/201)

Wow 200 posts. Hit a pretty big milestone yesterday. I got a wonderful message from a friend a few days ago but I just had the chance to read it. It was beautiful writing. Part of it said,

God is so good! He's going to teach you so much about His love for you! Keep opening your heart to Him, and when there's hesitation, know that it's because you're yearning deep inside to be with Him, but because of the lies